Thursday, 4 January 2007

New Year Resolutions

I m back after a long long time. last month went in a jiffy with things happening all around me. i fell sick and then as usual got better before i actually was. had no other option. this years has brought good news. someone i really dislike is going out of my life for a month or so. i m so very looking forward to the relaxed time. only sad thing is that i will have to spend two days without vir too.... which i know i m gonna hate. he is the only person who cares for me and i m going to be all alone without him.

and i have decided that this year i m going to be what he wants me to be - HAPPY

for that i will have to take some hard decisions. but i HAVE to take them to stop myself from going insane... and i know, when i m in pain, when my heart is broken, vir also feels it. i dont want him to ever be sad. so my list of resolutions go like this

  • Be positive, dont let anything defeat me
  • have a baby. i m so madly waiting to have our baby in my hands
  • mark my terriroty very very clearly and not let ANYONE intrude in that.
  • make sure i keep myself up to date with the IT domain
  • make sure that our baby grows up in an environment which enables him/her to have all the advantage in the cut throat world. environment which is not regressive and is academicaly stimulating.
  • keep the resolution.

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Wednesday, 15 November 2006

wuthering depths




if you find yourself at the page "http://www.moviecodec.com/topics/2420p4.html" , u know u have hit the rock bottom. any guesses how to reach at this place. well ... the truth is, u have to type "i m so lonely" in the search thread and Bamm!!! here u are. jokes aside, there are 6 billion human being in the world. 99% must be able to communicate in one way or other... still we are the loneliest race in the world... why? why are we so scared of saying what is in our heart? is it the fear of rejection, no i guess its the fear of getting rejected again. what do u do when promises are not kept. what do u do when your anchor says " u r too heavy to hold on". what do u do when everything just stops mattering. do u give up? or do u give sign before giving up? what if u are still not heard and you have no where to go. do u take th eultimate path?
why is that it hurts the most when we are left on our own by the people who matter the most in our life? technically it should hurt the same, isnt it?
does the pain go when life ends?? or u get stuck in between.. the no man's land?


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